I’m doing the whole stressing-out-about-a-predicted-outcome-that-may-not actually-come-true thing again. And of course it’s about university because some of the biggest personal struggles I experience are related to my academic insecurities. It’s really rather exhausting going through this every time I have to write an essay, no matter how many words it is.

I’m trying very hard to remind myself that essays are still new to me, as is university, and that this time next year I will undoubtedly feel better about my academic skills. But right now it’s a bit stressful and bit scary and bit overwhelming. I’m frustrated with myself for not having better used my time over this two week break. I mean, I’ve done work, yes, but I could have done more. Cue the psychologist in me telling me not to beat myself all the time. I can counteract every positive thing with at least two negative ones and that is a very damaging habit.

Classes start again tomorrow and I’m looking forward to it.